So I want to talk a bit about my journey and how I got to where I am today as a photographer, content creator/ blogger. It definitely wasn’t planned or a goal of mine but wanted to share with you how life can create unpredictable outcomes and most times it can be something that you’ve always needed!
The power of manifesting your dream life is real. Only if you accept what you’ll have to go through in order to achieve it.
My Past “Creative” Job
Whew chile, I’ve worked everywhere and would be bored with the job within 6 months! I started working at the age of 15 and then once I moved to LA, I was in college and needed to make extra income on the side just for fun.
So I had a friend who did modeling and figured I should try it to. I enjoyed it but I didn’t take it seriously. I thought being a “creative” wasn’t a real job back then and I was focused on school and having fun on the weekends with modeling work.
I didn’t do many modeling jobs as I started to see how the LA lifestyle was really like, which was a bunch of fake people and doing things that many young girls would do just to make it to the top.
I knew this wasn’t for me but hey, being the age of 20 and getting free photos with photographers was a win for me. I wanted to build a portfolio and see where it could go but not really doing anything with it eventually.
It was fun to be in a fashion show, seeing the photographers work with models, and watching BTS of tv shows and movies. I really enjoyed it but didn’t think too much of it as being a career.
I continued to do this during the weekends but then I focused more on school and my modeling days were over. I graduated college and started applying for “real work” after college and got a job in a corporate workplace. I thought this was it. This was going to be what I’ve always wanted. I got weekends off, bonus pay, health care paid… and then I started to get bored again and could not understand why this was happening! I went to school to have the dream corporate job and to find out I’m capped with salary was a no no for me.
Something was happening inside of me and I just had to get out.
Manifesting
I didn’t understand the concept of manifesting until I was out of college. I did have a vision of what I wanted to do with my life in high school which was to have a lot of money, a big house, travel, have a husband, and do whatever I wanted. It really seemed like the dream and a bit materialistic lol.
However, I didn’t think of what it really meant to manifest. There’s also a change you need to work on inside of you to start seeing the potential of what you have.
I started listening to Bob Proctor, Tony Robbins, and so many other people who lived on manifesting and speaking on positivity. I really resonated with that and my mindset started to change. I felt like I had to propel myself more and understand that you create your life with the words you speak and the thoughts you imagine.
When I left my job in LA, something spiritually was telling me that I deserved more and I had to figure out what that was. I felt like my husband and I was a bit stagnant there and when we visited Miami I thought that this could be our new start. If we didn’t like it then we could move back but I wanted to see the potential of what it could be.
I was definitely excited to move out here but soon discovered I felt like I was stuck when we moved to Florida. I couldn’t find a job, I didn’t like the people here and I just couldn’t find my footing. I felt a bit lost and wondered if I made the right decision.
I hated living here for 3 years and when I did my job hunt I kept asking myself why can’t I find a job! I’ve NEVER had a problem back in California! Then I had to stop and pray. I remember always telling myself that I wanted to become an entrepreneur and I think that was the direction of where I had to move.
Well, I did real estate for a quick moment as an agent but once I became pregnant, I realized it wasn’t for me. I wasn’t too excited to be in that field and realized I wanted to be an investor instead.
After having my daughter, I started praying more about what I wanted and asked god to give me guidance.
Ya’ll I had to wait for a bit because I could not figure this out! I was crying and wondering what the hell am I supposed to do?! What am I good at? I love to work and provide for myself but felt like I was lost.
I started to manifest and speak of things that I really wanted. Although it was difficult to see through it while going through postpartum, not feeling like myself and being lost, I knew that I had to start getting back into manifesting and praying for things I really wanted in my life.
I began to be intentional and had visions of what my ideal life would be like as an entrepreneur, thinking of the money goals I wanted and dreaming of the person I’ve always wanted to become especially besides being a mom.
My hidden talents
As I look back, I’ve started to realize I always enjoyed creating a bit but never took it seriously. Maybe because no one showed me at an early age that I had this gift and I would go by what “society” wanted.
You know how it is when you go to college, get a degree, telling people you went to an amazing university with the titles and working for a corporate job. Oh and the debt you collect as well (eye roll).
For some people it works for them and that’s great but my track record soon uncovered that I wasn’t meant for the workplace. I was definitely great with admin work and getting along with my employees, but I would always be anxious about how I performed and underpaid.
In July 2020 when my husband got sick I knew I had to create some kind of income so that he wasn’t the only breadwinner. I wanted to be the breadwinner too and that’s always been instilled in me. I honestly don’t mind working since its something that I’ve always loved to do but wanted to build for myself.
I’m soo glad I have support from my husband to build an empire and do it without limits.
I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to do but I had to figure something out. I went on Youtube and watched many videos about making money online and then one thing that stuck out was a video about creating high paying skills.
Since I had the time at home and no money to invest in something, I figured I can learn in that aspect.
Then I realized maybe if I took this Youtube thing seriously, I can make something happen! I bought my sony a6000 camera from Best Buy, used my credit card to purchase it (I was nervous to buy a camera that expensive at the time) and then I studied a lot of videos from Youtube university for da free free.
I was a bit nervous at first because I didn’t know if this was something that I was going to pursue consistently but I knew I didn’t want to feel stuck at home doing nothing.
From there I did videos on Youtube for a while and then I hopped on Instagram to post better photos of myself and my family.
The goal for me was to have better photos on my timeline for myself and didn’t have a goal about how I would be doing this as a business at ALL.
I started loving the community I was building and the connections I was making. Then I learned of influencing and NEVER would have thought that this would be something I would be doing for real….Like I thought influencing wasn’t real and it was just a hobby.
Boyyy was I wrong! Its definitely hard work if you treat it like a business and doing it full time! I started taking it seriously, invested in two classes with my money to see if this thing could work out for me with campaigns etc and I will say its working.
Then, I decided to turn this into a business as of January 2021 when I started my blog. I wanted my blog to be something where I can vent, share my ideas and connect with more moms who are similar to me and on the motherhood journey.
I figured ok, I think I’m going to be making this a thing and dive into this full time and bet on myself! I’ve always worked hard for other companies but never gave myself a chance to work on myself.
This is when I discovered that with my skill of consistency and hard work, things have truly opened up for me. It has given me more confidence to pursue this creative lane and letting myself learn as I grow.
I’ve always had plans with other ventures and it never worked out for me. This time I didn’t have a plan and allowed things to flow naturally. I still do have monthly goals and short term plans but I don’t look too far into the future because it’s hard for me to pinpoint what life would be like in a couple years.
Then photography became a thing for me when a friend of mine wanted my services and then I just out of the blue decided I can take this thing on as a business too! Ha! I then created a plan for the month to reach out to other influeners on IG for photos, and had a goal of how many I needed to start my portfolio etc. I’m truly LEARNING as I go and I’m so happy I did.
Lessons
Sometimes there won’t be a detailed plan for what you want to do in life. It may work for some and others maybe not. I know for me, the way I move in life I have to go out and reach for it and see what happens.
Maybe this could be for you too, maybe you’re the type who can’t write a whole goal plan for the year and just need that extra push to start. Most times overthinking and over planning can delay us! How many of you been through the analysis paralysis?
That is what has happened to me in the past and realize this is not ME. I have to go and do it without much planning.
Covid has taught all of us that life is not guaranteed. We cannot be sure of what will happen in the future and our jobs aren’t “secure”
What is secure for me is going out and making it happen. Allowing myself to see my capabilities and having a positive impact on people is what makes me happy.
I always say this but go out and do it scared. Don’t allow fear to stop you from dreaming. I’ve always been a bit scared but I know from my experience you can do this too. You are capable, able and going to receive everything you’ve dreamed of.
You just gotta put the work in. It’s like a seed. Plant it and watch it grow. Watch yourself blossom into the person you’ve always wanted to become.
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